now rain


Now rain

I'm mostly melancholic tonight, partly anhedonic, a little happy but not sleepy Because not only the rain finally, but how insane it is to feel love and want to give your life away for it.
insufferable but nice just by seeing their smile your world is turned upside, over and down.
Love is such a factor in our life, its insanity makes stories. million love songs, seven universes of poetries, ten pages of novel, telling the same thing, love. love. again again. Such a boring and cheesy word. Overtly used, so cheap. But we crave the meaning anyway. Mother feeds their baby, someone waits in the lobby. That is magic, no? Love creates such chaos in our already broken minds. So intense yet so pretty. My heart is always racing now, thinking one I love.
I can remember things like that. I can even remember things I don't really have. It's very nice tonight. My brother, my lover, my friends, them I haven't seen in long time. I talked to them in my heart. So clear like in daylight.

x Nuril
30 May 24